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Wednesday, May 28, 2008

After 7weeks of school in NYP, ii realised that ii can't cope with my work when tests are round the corner.. Just for 1 Marketing ICA, ii spent so much time on revising them.. & ii could barely remember anything that ii'd studied ! ARGHHS . ii hate this lifestyle.. being so relax at times , and being so freaking stressed up when tests are near.. D:

Today's Marketing ICA is ok to me, ii found that MCQ questions are so difficult lah , essay is ok for me.. D: MCQ , ii hate you !

yay, going to stay over at belovedd's house next week . bleahx . happy happy ~ , WOOO , tmr 29 again (!) Happy advanced anniversary, love x3 . Alright. iim so sleepy now! ii go rest le. post soon again.

Tags replied , thanks for relink & tagg , leen , xin , lyn , jasmine :]

♥ June wrote this @ 6:49 PM

Sunday, May 25, 2008

Love ,

I never know I had caused such unhappiness to you.. Few months ago , things weren't stable for me.. I kept tearing because of small little things.. Now that I'm okay, and you aren't.. I was wrong all the while.. I thought you were as happy as me.. Never did I knew that you were not exactly what I assume.. If you never post such things on our blog, I didn't know that you were suffering there.. The last time I cried for you was 1month plus ago, however, I teared once again today.. Whenever I hear you cry, I know I broke your heart again.. I once told myself that I would NEVER let belovedd cry again, but I failed to do so. TODAY, this moment..
I'm such a failure, a failure that makes my love cry over and over again.. I'm sorry for so much unhappiness...

The post you wrote actually hurt me deeply, DON'T say sorry... The feeling is terrible, a knife stabbing through my heart.. Unbearable pain.. I...

As what you mentioned in the post, "I'm gonna make you suffer?" I was just kidding, never did I know you took it so seriously.. Will I ever let my boy suffer? Will I? To state the fact, letting you suffer = stabbing a knife through my heart.. So will I ever let you suffer and get myself so hurt ? WILL I ?!

You said that you are like talking to yourself on that blog? Should I delete this blog then? I really hate to see you saying that.. Hurt me again.. DON'T say sorry...

Vesak Day, your mom tagged along.. I don't mind.. I couldn't reject her.. She asked me.. "Can I go too?" What if I said no? What will she think of me? I don't want her to have bad impression on me, can?

I'm very happy to see you getting an urgent leave just for me... Thank you love.. I appreciate it, alot alot..

I'm sorry, couldn't be with you when you are having a headache.. Sorry.. I want you be with you when you needed me most, but I couldn't.. Sighs..

Planned to buy ring yesterday right ? You said you don't have enough cash with you.. Didn't know that you wanted to use NETS. What I knew was, you said that there'll be extra charge, and I thought you wanted to buy another day.. So I said that.. It's not that I don't want it yesterday.. I wanted it very much, you know? I was sad too, when I said that we can get it next time.. But what can I do? I don't want you to... You cried on the bus.. I didn't know.. All the while I thought you were having headache.. Cause you said so.. and you didn't deny.. Fine, I'm hurt once again.. Lied to me again..

I wanted you to be happy very much.. I thought that these few days you were as happy as me.. But you weren't.. Your first unhappy feeling started on May19.. I only get to know it on May25.. 6days later.. Oh great, I'm such a girlfriend to you.. Hahas.. I told myself that I MUST NOT hurt you anymore.. But I failed to do so.. Sometimes I thought, Will I ever make you smile again? Can I make you happy again? Sorry for all the unhappiness caused.. Really sorry..

如果有一天，不幸的事发生了。。我愿意用我的性命换取你的。。原因浅浅，因为我爱你。。

我能再看见你的笑容吗？

♥ June wrote this @ 10:18 PM

Saturday, May 24, 2008

Hmm, haven't been posting for quite a moment. :D Going out w love later [: Where are we going then ? ii guess we'r going back to his house ba :D
=x Promised his mom that we'r going to d beach tday , then don't feel like going.. Im Dead (!) LOLLS .
Arghhs , sianXz , this coming week shall be d worst week ever.. Acct & Marketing test (!) ARGHS . Gonna buck up tmr :P bleahx . Let me enjoy tday . kekes . OHH YARR , gonna do hw tmr too ! LOLLS .

最近，心情没这么好。。不知原因。。因该是中国四川地震所造成的吧。。我种觉得世界已经不是我所认识的地方了。。好恐怖哦。。人到底会活到几岁呢？有人说，在2010年，世界就来到了尾声了。。世界末日咯。。
想想。。现在的年轻人，包括我在内，好可怜哦。。如果真真事实会发生的话，我们根本无法享受人生，无法尽力体验，无法满足自己。。*叹气*
想起四川地震的画面。。死了这么多人。。我的心情就沉到最低点。。看到可怜的生还者。。看到可怜的孤儿就这样失去父母，失去亲人。。根惨的是，有些人还没被找到。。有些生还者还被困当中。。为什么会发生这种事呢？为什么老天爷要这样罚无辜的人呢？哎。。

♥ June wrote this @ 11:43 AM

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

post post post.. havent been posting for a very long time . ahahah , so lazy lah . x.x hmm.. its SIT elearning day tmr (!) yays , no school :P . Yuppx . Hmm , since thr's no school tmr , i feel like going out to have loads and loads and loads of fun ! Hmm , danny asked me to go bugis w them tmr morning , at 10 . 不见不散。。 ahhh~ its like so early , & wat are we gonna do thr ?! Aiyyaa . see how lah . >"<

during maths lecture today , ii msged belovedd ahh .. ii told him tmr no sch & asked if he could take leave or smthing.. then he "took", not yet cfm as his mdm slept at 9+ pm most probably.. LOLLs . so aiya . nvm bahx . if tmr he work then work norxx . 我在家里读书。。hee . [:

sian sian sian .. no mood to post ar .. 1am + luh , keke . ii gonna slp now . GOOD NITE for now :D

♥ June wrote this @ 1:09 AM

Thursday, May 15, 2008

oh oh~ Earthquake has happened in China ii guessed . Aww , so many peeps died . Arghs . Horrible experience which ii guess no1 wants to encounter any of these . Well , ii dn care ~! It doesn't affect me anyways :P

Yeah ~ was in school since 9am . things had been so smoothly . went for lessons , breaks , lessons , breaks . cool huh . hees . one unexpected thing happened to DANNY again when he was in the library cafe . ahaha , he spilled MILO again ! this is his 2nd time in the week spilling milo off the table (!) Aww , so unlucky ! kekes . Well , got this incident taken in my phone xP . AHH my phone is offed x.x ii shall post the picts in tmr x.x hahah . having DSTP test tmr ar . dint study much . hope can pass ah z333

♥ June wrote this @ 11:35 PM

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

ahahah . getting lazy these few days . kekes , lazy to do anything . back has been aching since Monday . Terrible ache/pain that ii can hardly speak out loud . I wish this pain would disappear soon . asap if possible . ii could not even concentrate in class w this pain *Arghhx*

this is d 5th week of school . things had came by so smoothly . ii love this kind of life . x3 exams are round the corner . ii shall be busy soon . hees :DD study study study (!)

Hmmx , gonna write love letter for my belovedd again (!) youu huh , so nottie onee . never write for so long already x33 damn miss your letters lurhhs . kekes . yupp . hmm . belovedd , you changed le (!) you changed to a better & guai boy boy ler . yays . happy happy ~ x33 iim so fortunate to be w you . x33 whenever ii felt depressed of anything , i'll think of you .. only YOU can make me happy once again . ii'll think of you having to wait for me outside school almost everyday.. thinking of holding your hand when im w you.. having to "box" you when you'r nottie . kekes . all these little things you do for me are appreciated .. belovedd , im here..
to give you all my love , to fulfill all your dreams w you... & we shall make a wonderful story tgt x3

♥ June wrote this @ 3:58 PM

Saturday, May 10, 2008

OHHHHHH . It's Mother's Day tmr (!) . [: Most likely having dinner at grandma house . Hee . Hmm , this year is my 1st year buying formal "present" for my mom . Hehex . Yepp . Bought present for auntie , belovedd's mom too [:

This is for my MOM [:

This is for auntiie :D

Hmm , got auntie a Rain's concert DVD , which belovedd says she wanted much.. & got my mom a soup receipe book [: She said she wanted to buy . But dint buy :P . She wanted this 2months ago. ! HEex . 够体贴了吧？BLEAHX ;D Hmm , giving it to auntiie later on , & mom tmrr [: Heex . Well . Here to wish all Woman in this world , HAPPY MOTHERS' DAYYYY ! :DDD

♥ June wrote this @ 11:08 AM

Wednesday, May 07, 2008

perhaps im being too over-sensitive . ii always got tings messed up , got ppl's mood upside down . ii was being over sensitive today . its all me that all these had happened . all ii knw is to keep asking "WHY" ..

many many of the "WHY"-s made someone's mood upside down . ii shan't ask anymore of the WHYs from now on . im damn f*cked up w myself now . ii duwan such things to happen . its all me , me . im the one who caused this unhappiness . im always d one . when things were as usual , i made a fuss out of it . whatever . ii shall be "Little Miss Whatever" today .

ii was hoping for ur return . but who knows . things turned out to be unexpected.. ii really hope that time will go back to 9pm . Then ii wont let such unhappiness happened again .. im hurt once again . ii've gone 1 big round just to hurt myself once again .

♥ June wrote this @ 10:52 PM

*ahh* *screams at marcus di* " WHR MY X3 ON YOUR BLOG NAMEEE ?! " Hahaa .
" Friend at muaii hse . ltr i go add k ^^ " , LOLL . that's our conversation awhile ago xP .

Hmm , 425pm . AHH ~ beloved gonna off work soon . & FINALLY , D: . Missed him for d whole day lahh !! Wont be meeting him for dinner tday . Cause school ends early tday . (: 11am-1pm (: Yuupppx . Met jas to have lunch tgt . Then came home to do nothing ! LOL . Okay , slept awhile . Probably 1hr , less than that maybe @_@ ! Still so tired now ! ARGHx . But ii dun wan to slp luhh , afraid that ii cant slp ltr in d night (:

Hmm , this week is not considered a busy for me . Perhaps thr's some "tests" , "gradings" but they aren't real write on test @_@ , Hahaa . Week 6 coming !! Arghh . That should probably be d most busy week . With all d tests coming up ! AHH ! hhaha . Im having a C.math test tmr . Our milo lecturer told us it's open book test ._. and he told us abt the kinds of questions we'll see in d paper.. ii was like OMGawd , is this considered as a test ?! LOL . Ahah , quite glad about that . At least ii wouldn't have to memorise those weird formulas like " 1+1= 10 " =.=!! LOLOLx .

Ahh~ Business Communication having ICAs tmr too !! AHH *note taking and listening* !! AHHH ~ siao liao X.x HOPE II CAN DO WELL TMR <33333>

我就写到这里。。好累了。。再见。。！

♥ June wrote this @ 4:21 PM

TEAR DROPS ON MY GUITAR [:

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..
Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see

Taylor Swift

♥ June wrote this @ 2:42 PM

Sunday, May 04, 2008

heyoo .. back heheehhe . hmm .. belovedd found a cute game ytd lahh ! hees . then bcos its Sat , went to his hse to play lorx . then can pei him at the same time ma !! heex . went to amk hub w him first , then went to his hse lorx . his mom went out to bugis then back soon after [: . Yups . then spent d rest of d time at his hse playing that cute cute game " SealOnlineUSA " hehehs . quite nice oh [: . Yupp . then ii changed a new blogskin tday (!) heex . quite nice uh . :D . heex .

had loads of hw lorx . accountancy most siol . ROAR , so difficult lo ! booshiit . heex . [: but managed to do most of it :D ! Yupx . school gonna start again soon ! sianxx .

PoSt SoOn . Oh Yeah , gOt nEw sPecS le [: . heEx !

♥ June wrote this @ 11:06 PM

Friday, May 02, 2008

2nd may . cool . so long nv post again . so bored ah . had been schooling for d past 1month already . 1month flew passed so quickly . hahha . ytd was labour day . it was supposed to be public holiday . but ii dun see people having a PH on that day . it seemed like a normal day to me . cos everyone is working as usual , including my dad [: hahha . perhaps labour day should be a school holiday & not a PH ! hehhe . yups . cos every student had a "free" day ytd [: hhehe .
School was usual tday . ii hate Friday d most . Bcos , school was d most hectic on this day . 9am-6pm school . only 2hrs break at 12-2pm . quite boring huh . luckily we were asked to bring laptop to sch on friday for marketing class . LOLOL , if not ii wont bring & thus wont have a great fun time at tutorial & lectures hees . [:

*AHH* ii dun understand accountancy !! LOLOL , not really dun understand lah . its bcos of that stupid break in btw lesson . ARGHH ! ii was listening & concentrating to d lecturer at the 1st half of d lesson lah . then dno why d hell did he want a 10 min break in d middle . since its a break , then ii went playing mahjong at viwawa.com lah . hoping that time will pass by easily . THENNNNNNN , so quickly , 10 mins passed . ii was still playing mahjong w danny & qifeng . LOLOL , then end up playing till 10mins b4 class end . LOLOL , 2nd class of d lesson , dun understand at all ! keke . [:

好的。现在我就用华文来blog了。试试看而已。。呵呵！嗨哟，真sian 啊。我觉得我很失败呢！我无法让我亲爱的弄得开心一点。。我不知道因该这么样才能让他有回到开心的样子。。亲爱的。。你知道我看了你这么闷闷不了的样子，我很痛心吗？好伤心哦！我的愿望就是能天天见到你开心的一面。。

♥ June wrote this @ 8:59 PM