Alright , yesterday was a fun , enjoyable but stressful day :} . Its fun & enjoyable as im able to accompany my beloved again ! Its stressful as Im worried for my poly adminstration stuffs . Im afraid Im unable to complete it on time D: . I hope I can do it successfully . Yup , I began to felt stressful when we'r about to board d train . Beloved knew I wasn't myself . I didn't tell him what happened as I don't want him to worry that much , however , his whole facial expression changed after knowing that Im not myself .
- Im really sorry for not telling you what happened . I know it has been many times . SORRY D: , I promise there won't be anymore of these D: .
Yep , soon after I reached home . Finished doing what i should had done, I went surf net / chat on d msn for awhile , then off i go, to bed . While chatting on d net , I was smsing beloved @ d same time.. He replied after quite long baXz . I guess he's too busy with his stuff . I knew he was'nt at home all d while . I can see from his replies in his sms . I guess I was too emotional yesterday . I cried many times, many many times . Suddenly I had a wish , I wish he's right by my side when i need him d most . I need him , so where is he ? I couldn't contact him . I was hoping for his replied in sms , seriously hoping for something , but he didn't really replied . Replied was just asking "why laidat" - when i don't even know wat does he meant by that . Soon after , I felt asleep . I was awakened by a call at 1:43am , thinking that it would be him , however its his mom. His mom asked me whr has he gone ? Why isnt him at home at that timing ? Does he know he has to book in early morning tomorrow ? Well , suddenly I felt hopeless . I couldn't even tell his mom whr has he gone.. I couldnt... After that call , I tried to call him many times , a few smses , just nobody answered . Why ? I don't know . Im curious too .
- Why is it so hard for me to locate you when I need you ? Why is it so when its so urgent ? I want to have an answer .
Labels : When i need you d most ,Where were you ? |
