& my world will be coloured.

Monday, March 31, 2008

OMG (!) I'm back to my comp once again !! Goshh . Had no comp for d past 2 weeks . This is really crazy ! I did pratically NOTHING @ home . Besides slping & tving . LOLS . Right . Tons of things to write . But currently , I feel like playing (!) Omg . Finally can get to play D: . Alright . I go play firstttttt ! Shall post tmr , Hees . X3333333 BELOVEDDDDD !

♥ June wrote this @ 11:46 PM

Monday, March 17, 2008

Alright , yesterday was a fun , enjoyable but stressful day :} . Its fun & enjoyable as im able to accompany my beloved again ! Its stressful as Im worried for my poly adminstration stuffs . Im afraid Im unable to complete it on time D: . I hope I can do it successfully . Yup , I began to felt stressful when we'r about to board d train . Beloved knew I wasn't myself . I didn't tell him what happened as I don't want him to worry that much , however , his whole facial expression changed after knowing that Im not myself .

- Im really sorry for not telling you what happened . I know it has been many times . SORRY D: , I promise there won't be anymore of these D: .

Yep , soon after I reached home . Finished doing what i should had done, I went surf net / chat on d msn for awhile , then off i go, to bed . While chatting on d net , I was smsing beloved @ d same time.. He replied after quite long baXz . I guess he's too busy with his stuff . I knew he was'nt at home all d while . I can see from his replies in his sms . I guess I was too emotional yesterday . I cried many times, many many times . Suddenly I had a wish , I wish he's right by my side when i need him d most . I need him , so where is he ? I couldn't contact him . I was hoping for his replied in sms , seriously hoping for something , but he didn't really replied . Replied was just asking "why laidat" - when i don't even know wat does he meant by that . Soon after , I felt asleep . I was awakened by a call at 1:43am , thinking that it would be him , however its his mom. His mom asked me whr has he gone ? Why isnt him at home at that timing ? Does he know he has to book in early morning tomorrow ? Well , suddenly I felt hopeless . I couldn't even tell his mom whr has he gone.. I couldnt... After that call , I tried to call him many times , a few smses , just nobody answered . Why ? I don't know . Im curious too .

- Why is it so hard for me to locate you when I need you ? Why is it so when its so urgent ? I want to have an answer .

Labels : When i need you d most ,Where were you ?

♥ June wrote this @ 11:14 AM

Friday, March 14, 2008

Hmm , did i post ytd ? Forget liao lah . Alright , shall post wat happened ytd nite & tday ba ! Hmm , wasn't in a good mood ytd night . I remember myself being so fucked up . Haha ~ Perhaps its due to some freaking admin stuff ddat freaking poly wants me to do ._. , they sent me ddat letter so many days ago ade , but im TOOOOO lazy to read / do it :} So yep , decided to read / do it ytd as d deadline is near d corner (!) Yep , then all those freaking words came out from my mouth ._. , luckily wasn't on phone with beloved , else he'll be suffering D: . Hehes . So yep , did all d tests for tday ba . Luckily everything is NORMALL :DD I'm happy about it hehes . Beloved dint went for NS tday . Whahha , ponten huh (!) LOL :P he woke up early in d morning to get MC norXz , then went for X-ray too (!) Oh ya ! I went for X-ray too :DD LOlS . *Sighs* My life should be shortened by afew years ba D: . Stupid ultra ray tingy @_@ Bleahs . Yep ! Shall post tmr :D I wana play puzzle with beloved le . TATAS :D

♥ June wrote this @ 11:41 PM

Thursday, March 13, 2008

Arlos , had nothing to do , so came to post abit :} . Hmm , its raining terribly out thr . I really pity those peeps who had to work/school despite d rain :{ . Heavy rain + thunder . Omg , scarryyy :{ .

Hmm , woke up @ 11:41 today . Beloved woke me up with his sms @_@ , then he told me he's very tired , & wanted to take MC for tmr o.O . WELLL (!) You shouldn't had gone to Chambers ytd !! See , so tired now D: . Making me freaking worried luh D: . June24 is a stupid crap ediotic nooob day D: i hate it kays . Shall not say anyting about that day . Perhaps beloved won't want to say it out D: . JUNE24, YOU SUCKS . D: Hmph !

Sighs , talking about CABALsea , irritating guild wants me to be 5O by tmr (!) 4.4more lvls , sighs , Im getting sick of training lvls . I want to train my magic skill lvl (!) I want to train my sword skill lvl (!) For godness sick . I hope they leave me alone D: , I'll try to lvl D:

Right , I tink i go off soon . I guess I shall post later :}

♥ June wrote this @ 12:10 PM

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

BOO , am back (!) hehes . well , i guess i had a very nice sleep ytd :} Yeps , but I recall myself waking up in d middle of d night O.O , drank water from my waterbottle , turning left & right for a few minutes , then couldnt recall anyting already . Perhaps I've fallen aslp *BUANG* ! :D . Yeps , woke up @ 1020 tday :} cos its raining & weather is so cold , & so , could get off my bed :D ! Then came on9 to play o.O , came msn , then went to wash up or so , then back to my comp again o.O . Yeps . Hmms , then went Maple pei my didi lor . Then went thr awhile X_X , wanted to pq with him , but his stupid ldr said his gf is more important , & so Im left with no slot ._. , then before I leave to audition with mega , i defamed her LOL . didi asked me to defame de X_x . so yea ~ not my fault arhXz @_@ .

hmm , beloved accidentally called me just now . He said he was washing d dental instrument stuff , then accidentally called @_@ , he said " I tot I was dreaming cause I heard ur voice while washing" LOLs . You aren't dreaming =P , you called (!) Bleahs x33 ! Yepp , just hang up not long ago . Chatted for 12mins , then I feel that he's tired , so yeahh , hang up phone norXz . Yeps . Hmm , gonna rain soon le . D sky is so dark now @_@ , Yeps . I tink I better go bathe first xD ! Else later damn cold de . Yeps , shall post later i guess :D . CYA all , for d time being hehes XD !

♥ June wrote this @ 12:23 PM

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

hmmm , beloved called me just now . dint want to ans @ first D: , cos i was tearing , dint want him know , but in d end , he still know D: . badbad =P , hmmm , im quite happy . @ least he came to talk about it . i planned not to tell him how i feel norXz . D: cos i feel that im unreasonable if i tell him so... sighs , am i ? i think im D: . soBsoB . T_T !

beloved , thanks for everyting . thanks for being thr for me . don't be silly anymore okays ? iluu :D ! muacks x33 !

♥ June wrote this @ 11:32 PM

Alright , im back in blogging : D . This is a new blog , new link , i don't wish to let many people know about this link :} . I am gonna write all my feelings in here , i don't wish to destroy other people's happy feelings with my stupid freaking feelings . If you happen to link it here , or me telling you bout this blog , don't come too often alright , cause i may just ~!@#$%^ , & make you fucked up :} ! Yeps .

[o8 March o8 , Saturday]
Woke up @ 1O3Oam , went to bathe & went out of house . Dint tell beloved that i left house to his house . Told him that when i reached d bus-stop to his house . Yep , bought breakfast to his house & play his comp after that . After a couple of hours of gaming , we went to catch a movie @ AMK hub :D , (Sky of Love) . A nice & touching love story . I teared in d end & i supposed he had his tear in his eyes too :D . Yeps , then head back to his house after ddat movie :D Went home @ about 9 , & he went chambers i board d bus :D

I enjoy d Saturdays being with you . Truthfully :D

[o9 March o8 , Sunday]
I woke up in d morning @ about 11am , went to wash up and everything , then came online.. Smsed beloved & confirm about d outings that day.. Had a wonderful outing with him , my sis (JAS) , eugene & my didi (ROTI PRATA) . We met @ bunk at 1pm , then saw gene playing cabal thr , with my beloved as his "teacher". Didi was so shy , hahas . Kept walking behind me ._.'' . Yeps , so since gene was playing cabal , i walked around d bunk norXz . D bunk was so quiet . :} So little peepos thr , saw some HT-ers HT-ing LOLs . Yeps , was watching half way when beloved came & said , "enjoy" , & he walked off . Was wondering whr he had gone.. Then looked around , saw him outside with his phone on his ear . So yeahh , wanted to walk out to him.. Then when he saw me.. he turned & walked off uh.. So well , i knew what that meant . Automatically , i turned back into d bunk luhh . Dint had much feelings then . Yeps , then we went to had lunch @ Long John @ 2pm, & went for a movie (Step up 2) @ 3:10 . That was a pretty nice show :DD After d show , we went to eat again ! Ate in d foodcourt @ PS . After d lunch , d 2 guys went to eat ICE-CREAM waffles below d foodcourt . OMGawd , i was tinking if they were really SOOOO hungry LOLs . Yeps , then gene went off first as he had to rush back to his camp :} Then 4 of us went back to bunk , Jas & didi played an hour of audi thr , then beloved & I went to d arcade & play abit norXz :D Then soon after we went back home :D
Hmm , i teared @ 12am that night , which is on d 1OMarch :D , Yeps , cos was on phone with him before he goes to bed , we talked about what happened that afternoon & I recalled on d "turn away" he did in bunk in d afternoon lah :D . Yeps , and I teared , I dno why , I just teared :} I just recalled that my heart sunk when he walked away . I am not sure why . I hate to see d backview of you . I hate to see you walk away from me . That feeling real sux . D: . I know when i was tearing on d phone , you also teared . I can hear it . Im sorry to let you tear . Im really sorry D: . Anyways , d rest of d updates were in d letter im giving you :D .

[11 March o8 , Tuesday]
Hmm , was slacking d whole morning , cause Jas was using d comp . @ 5+ beloved called , cause he booked out le lah . Then he told me he's going out , with his mei , arrow . He told me his mei missed him & wants to see him & meet him loh , & so he'll be late home ._. , well . once he told me that , my feeling was.. INSTANT down.. Not sure why either , hahas . Perhaps im thinking negatively again :} hahas . Then i teared -__- , i really hate d current me.. Tearing everyday . I hate it . I hate myself for that.. My heart just hurt everytime i cry.. Do your heart hurts when u said it hurt ? Mine do , Issit normal ? Or issit thr's problem in my heart . I don't know :} ! Hahas . Right , im off le . My eyes are watery again . Hahas , Noob me , with such a pair of emotional eyes ._. , BYE all :D

♥ June wrote this @ 7:29 PM